rot... went to play basketball with eugene, derek, shi ming, nicholas, guo hao and shi jing... it had been some time ever since i last saw some of em... i can only say today i played quite fierce haha... no siaming for lay up... played quite well today... tok about some army stuffs with eugene cos he will be going in soon... just to gif him some idea on how BMT life is like... after that cycled to orchard rot around... met yvonne tok tok a while then she go back to her k-ing liao... then i just cycled around orchard see here see there... see till sian already cycled home... so now here i am blogging and eating my lunch+dinner at the same time... k lah... nothing much in my life now so my blog is getting shorter haha... well take care folks and have a nice sunday ahead =D

emo again... dunno why like this... always on/off... arh!!! fuk it...

Woke up at 9.30am today... watch doraemon and found out that i got not enough time to be on time for k-ing session with ah gu and derek... in the end i took a cab again =/ as usual being late again... but this time is just only 5min not that jialat haha... reached paradiz at 11.05am and found out that the kbox outlet over there only opens after 7pm... we were like wth -.-!! well nvm... we took a cab to cine instead with their friend yy... had our k-ing session over there... sing here sing there shout here shout there haha... after everything.. went to heeren with derek and ah gu cos ah gu needa buy a long sleeve for his interview over in SMU... damn mafan loh dun even have a single long sleeve so damn cock... rushed to attend some urgent stuffs before going down to EY... late again haha... what to do this is GM lOlx... know alot of ppl today which surely will helps mi alot =D walked around chinatown and decided to walk to lau pat sat see see... saw xinyi over there and she said she is meeting zhaoyi and gang to watch some musical over at Victoria Concert Hall... so i just accompanied her friend and her there loh... walk walk walk then pass her my cam cos zhaoyi needa use... after that just went to the bus stop and took a bus home... actually i got a basketball session at night... but it rains like cats and dogs so no session tonight... fuk man... damn pissed off... rain rain rain then no more bball with ah gu, ba bao, derek and eugene... in the future i dunno still have so many weekends for basketball a not also... will be busy with NDP and ops stuffs... dunno what will happened in the coming months... well... who will knows what will happens in the future... if we knows that, we won't be in the present haha... take care folks... gonna have my dinner now... ROT ROT!!!

ToinK... rot whole day at home... was busy packing my room and sleeping... i think i sleep more than i pack my room haha... was reading blog and surfing for my stuffs thru the net... i came across this nice phrase...

"When dawn breaks... light will shine thru... feels as if hope will come knocking on our doors..."

Kinda meaningful and it really brings hope to ppl who are depress haha... well... got to go back camp soon le... now having my pathetic tom yam bowl noodle... take care and have a nice week ahead dudes...

A rather slack week for mi... playing bball in camp with injured knee and rotting around with my platoon mates... just got a bit busy over server stuffs at times haha... but well... at least i got my decent rest ya...

Coming week will be COC parade at keat hong... why so many ppl dun like parade yet i enjoy it so much haa.. weird hur... digging of the stupid shell scrape will be on next week too... that will be damn boring and tiring... sian man...

Had been jogging and playing basketball since thursday night... run here run there like it never ends... somehow it will end... it is just a matter of time only... same goes for relationship... when it is time to end it will end... no point clinging on to a relationship which won't work out for each another... it will just bring more hurt to the other party... so thanks for telling mi early... at least i might be able to get over it soon... no matter what... we are still friends... i will be the person whom u can confide to when u are feeling down... a listener who will listen to all ur complaints... to conclude: i will be ur close friend who will be there for u when u need mi...

Thanks to all my friends who have been there for mi when i was down... talking mi out and giving mi choices on what i should do... thanks kai kai for telling mi that i still got my partner "music"... without music... i think i won't make it out of this 'tunnel of love' at all... thanks to shi ming for coming up with a nice sentence saying "In life... there is no such thing as turning back... Only moving forward... Getting sad won't change anything..." it is this which makes me move forward instead of staying stationary and dwell in the past...

I guess... it is time for mi to fully concentrate in music... gonna improve my singing techniques... =D oh yah miss judy... dun forget to intro mi to that whoever person ah... u know who de ah... i dun care... better intro mi to him =p

Useless???

March's Conclusion...

What is happening to me??? just can't seems to get things right... everything is just so wrong... IPPT can't even do proper 6 chin ups... what is this... can run can jump cant do chin up i am still a useless fuk... hais... am i really that useless or what... will i be able to survive in NP when i am in in 2009??? is accountancy for mi???

Actually now RT is also nothing much to mi already... no nights off or what i totally don't care... no gf to accompany during the weekend neither on nights off days... saturday afternoon book out... wash clothes at night eat with mummy can already... how much can i ask for... i can't play basketball neither badminton due to my knee injury... useless leg... jump only pain... how useless can i be... little little things i can cry... why am i like this... am i over sensitive??? is this a good or bad thing??? now my life is near worthless... nothing is useful except for my eyes...

Yesterday went to my god sis's baby 1 year old celebration at pasir ris... although all my relatives were around and my nephew and niece playing with mi... somehow i still got kinda bored... cos i remembered saying i am gonna bring judy to the celebration... but i guess this thing will never happen... i went to the beach walking alone... looking at the sky filled with stars... walking along the beach without anybody by my side is just so uncomfortable... is like my last relationship was 2005 november... on the 19th of march 07 got together with judy... i really enjoyed being with her... but sad that this kind of feeling doesn't last long... i won't get to hold her hands and enjoy her companion anymore... i really miss her...

Got up early in the morning as my mum called asking what time is judy coming... cos i told her she will be coming over before we broke up... she cooked porridge for her and mi.. but i have to finish it all by myself cos.... she will never be around to eat... after eating, i wait for my student to come over.. somehow i am a part time vocal teacher now... i just teach what i know and try to get him/her to understand that singing is not a simple thing... hope he/she actually learns something from mi and i will be happy enough...

I also watched a video done by yong kiat for andrew's birthday... this idea is by the 3 of us (Yong kiat, Kevin, mi)... watching the video links mi back to pool fusion and the big birthday card done by Judy and mi... Last wednesday night, i went to fetch judy and we went to buy the necessary stuffs together for the birthday card... she spent her night in my house with my mum's permission... and together we completed the nice nice cute cute card for andrew... bought her breakfast in the morning and send her off to work... the 4 good buddies turned up at pool fusion 3 cos i had already planned what to do... i got judy to bring her lappy along and she loaded the video into her lappy... at first i thought andrew will cry but i guess that is not the right place to make him cry... at that moment... i told em i did the card with my gf which is judy... they wasn't that shocked to know that she is my gf cos more or less they could feel it i guess... but they were shocked to know that we ain't together anymore... when kevin know about this... the first thing he said was "are you ok? if you need someone to tok to... can tok to mi..." they know that i cant get over this kind of things easily... all these sort of things will be hanging in my mind for quite some time... i dunno what i can do now...

I thought i will be able to have a good nap in the afternoon... but i was wrong... when i closed my eyes... the images of us dating together came out like there is no tomorrow... i got up and walked to TBP to fix tracy's bracelet... but the salesgal who attend to mi wasn't around so never fix in the end... only she recognise mi if not no receipt very mafan... along the way i saw couples walking here and there... my heart sank when i look at them... i got no enery to lift my head up and walk properly... i look at the floor walk walk walk... as i walk my heart aches cos i was listening to the sentimental songs in my ipod... when will i be able to get this over... why am i thinking of her everyday... i cant help but to worry about her here and then... working till early morning... skipping meals... she can't even take care of herself... always complaining she is bored at work cos no customer one... i dun mind the complaints cos i miss her alot in camp... but i guess all the complaints won't come to me anymore... i still miss her badly wherever i go... will she???